I was feeling effing' bored at home this morning. So, I took out the letters he gave me. I dont know why also, I suddenly feel this urge t open up his letters one by one t read his every singe words. & I saw some sweet words he used t tell me.I found this in one of the letters.
"If dear want to hear bedtime story I will read to dear. " Liang zhi xiao zhu", story is sweet and short. The wolf want to blow down the house of the small pig made up of bricks. Big pig is more clever, he build a house made up of love and he kept small pig in his heart. Never ever let her out. The wolf blow and puff, & died. As long as our heart links together, we wont be separated.Its fate tat let us love each other again after we have broken up. Even if in our next lives we become enemies, im already content, as long as I meet you again. Even if this life we cant get married, we will build our pig house next life. I promise."
Sighs! I also realised I did not do the things that I've promised him t. Like, celebrate our 2nd year anniversary together, watch the stars together more, say Goodnight t him every night, watch the 100th movie & etc.
We used t write our own story. & I saw this zhu version 3 he wrote for me. People who dont wish t read it, its okay.[:
HIS 3RD VERSION:
Da zhu and xiaozhu really wan to be together. But the wolf kept pulling xiaozhu away. Xiaozhu cry and cry.Dazhu saw le very very sad. Dazhu hart really broken. Maybe letting xiaozhu go is a better choice ba. Dazhu tot to himself. But dazhu really knew xiaozhu already hart pain, dont wanna hurt her more. N dazhu promised her tat they would nvr be separated by wolf again. Dazhu nvr tot of breaking up,nvr even tot of it. nvr. Xiaozhu wrote a letter which hurt his heart deeply. Xiaozhu had the same thinking wif dazhu also. But xiaozhu suffered so much, dazhu cannot because of small things jiu let xiaozhu go. Somemore dazhu really love xiaozhu deeply in his heart.{ really? }If dazhu really let xiaozhu go,will she be happy? Xiaozhu in this world only got one. Dazhu and xiaozhu must stick together, nvr separate. Both pigs in the end win the wolf. Wolf kept quiet and left the pighouse. From then on, they lived happily ever after.
I guessed he has also forgotten the story that he has wrote. Its been so long, so long since I last wrote another zhu version for him. I shall write the next version here.
Dazhu & xiaozhu fen kai le. They used t love each other so much[: & put so much trust & hope in their little relationship, trying t make it last long. Xiaozhu tried t make dazhu happy everyday, but they were always unhappy. They decided t go separate ways. Although they have not been contacting each other for months, xiaozhu hai dui dazhu nian nian bu wang. Xiaozhu miss dazhu alot. & her friends always told her t return back t dazhu. But, whenever she had made up her mind t get back together with dazhu, there's always another thing which made her unhappy held her back. Everynight she would think back of the past & shed tears for dazhu. When she's feeling upset, she will look out of the window t look for stars.(: She miss dazhu's presence.& she miss lying on dazhu's chest. Listening t his every single heartbeat,following his breathing & hearing his loud snores. She miss covering dazhu's eyes & playing with him. Licking his face & poking his nose up t look like pig. She miss holding dazhu's hand & all his teddybear hugs. She miss riding on the bike with him.She miss sitting in playgrounds & counting the stars. She miss him. She miss almost everything about him.She really wants t continue their love story but when she thinks of how dazhu always suffer under their relationship, she would not tell him how she feels towards him. She claimed that she has given up on dazhu, & shall not think of him anymore. But deep inside her heart, she's not able t let go of him & this 1year+ relationship. Today, she wish the best for him. Ai yi ge ren. bu yi ding yao zai yi qi. As long as he's happy, I'm contented.
That's the end of this version. I guess there won't be another version again. Hopefully, dazhu can find another one he truly loves & forget about xiaozhu. Xiaozhu is also trying very hard t forget him. Perhaps, they're really not meant t be together.
I read some of his letters & I decided t put them away. Its really heart-breaking when I read his every words. When I see how he used t write & express his love for me. (: When I see how he used t end off his letter with a simple "I love you".
I've been typing so long, & I realised my hands are tired. Every story has an ending. But, is our story a sweet one?That's all!
Yes, Monster Mojojojo! [: